Saturday, May 28, 2016

six months


Already six months old! I can't believe it. Our little guys is sleeping 6-7 hours each night - in his crib! We're on a roll this week - he's slept in his crib four nights in a row. I hope we can keep it up. I have to admit on the nights that he sleeps in his bassinet next to our bed the main reason is I still love to have him him right next to me. I sleep easier, because I can wake up and hear his breathing.

My mother-in-law was the one who told me that I just have to trust in God that he's safe and sound in his crib at night (after my husband and I have each checked on him twice) and I'm getting better at trusting in that. He cries pretty loud when he's unhappy or wet, so there's no way we can't hear him.


The home study packet for our adoption and all of the paper work for our sibling adoption and transfer through the NEDC are waiting to be opened and started. I'm supposed to call the RN from the NEDC this month to talk about next steps and preparing for our check up appointment in August and our hopeful transfer in November.

I'm praying everything is okay with my uterus after my c-section and that I'm cleared to get pregnant again. I worry about these things. When the doctor walked in and told us that she was recommended at c-section when I was in labor with Logan (after 59 hours of labor) my only hesitation was because I knew it could effect future transfers (we had a monitor on Logan at the time and he was doing okay and did great the entire time I was in labor with him.)

I know I'll have to trust in God about my body being able to carry another baby again as well. It would be another huge, huge blessing. One I will not take for granted. So far my body seems to be recovering well from my c-section, but I haven't had a scan done on my uterus. I will have to wait until August to see what is in store for us and our family.

Sending prayers and hope to all of you on this journey.

xo Jill

Saturday, May 7, 2016

being his mom



There have been a lot of happy tears this weekend as I reflect on how my life has changed in the past year. I feel so blessed to be a mom to my son. I can't believe how joyful and complete my life has become since we found out we were pregnant, then he was born and now he's in our lives shaking things up and keeping us on our toes.

Every day he's growing more and more. Doing different things, making different sounds, moving, flipping, scooting, reaching.

Thank you God for my son.

Today I met my mom, sister and cousin for lunch and a little light shopping. We went to the fabric shop, yarn shop, book store and a coffee shop. Logan sat in his stroller and watched people. He's full of smiles. Pretty easy to take care of.

I got so lucky. We got so lucky.

Thank you God for our donor family. I hope they are having a wonderful Mother's Day weekend. We agreed to exchange information once a year. I wish I could send them a picture of Logan today, but know I need to honor our agreement.

Praying for you all on this journey. If you are feeling sad this Mother's Day because your prayers have not been answered yet, please keep your hope alive. I never thought this could happen to me, but it did.

I hope you bring home your baby soon.

xo Jill