Friday, June 10, 2016

letters from babyland


I typed in "Babyland" in my search browser and this is one of the images that came up. Too funny and kinda scary how consuming having a baby can be.

(I will never ever ever ever take it for granted. Not ever. If I didn't have a baby I wouldn't be able to reflect in this way. I wouldn't be able to relax and laugh a little about being a mom. But I can laugh, because God blessed us. 

I. Am. So. Lucky.

Logan is starting to sit up. He's babbling more and he's babbling louder. He's started this fake cry thing that he definitely picked up at daycare.

He is such a good mimic. Sometimes he sounds like a cross between a robot and a dolphin. A robotic dolphin.

I still get the chills when I look at Logan and I look at my husband and I realize we're a family. It's the sort of chills you feel when you stand at the edge of a cliff and then take a step back and realize you didn't fall.

Near misses with grief. It could have gone one way, but it went the other . . .

I'm so blessed to be in babyland.

We started the paperwork to renew our home study. They gave us a 20% reduction in fees because we're going embryo adoption and this is our third round with them. We were very grateful for that. We still have to answer a bunch of questions, get our physicals and have our doctors fill out the forms and then go to the sheriff's office to get our fingerprints done. Lots to do!

I talked to the NEDC today and they recommend that I stop breastfeeding 2 months before our transfer in November. That's the end of August - right around the time that we have our kick off appointment for trying for baby #2 with Dr. K. I should probably try to wean Logan at the beginning of August so my boobs don't feel like they're going to explode on our trip to Tennessee.

(It's great to have this problem. Being able to nurse was one of the things I mourned when it looked like I wasn't going to be able to get pregnant.)

August is coming fast!

Sending prayers to you all who are still on this journey and prayers to you all who are blessed to be in babyland.

xo Jill